The Way It Be

WELL AT THIS POINT IN MY LIFE I HAVE MANY OPTIONS, BUT OF COURSE I'M NOT SURE WHICH ONE TO TAKE. THE LORD HAS THE MOST SAY IN MY LIFE AND I'D LIKE TO SAY I LISTEN EVERY TIME BUT WE ALL KNOW I'M NOWHERE NEAR PERFECT. I'M NOT TAKING ANY CLASSES HERE AT SCHOOL, JUST WORKING. I'M NOT SURE IF I'M JUST HOMESICK BECAUSE I MISS THE BEACH AND I'M HORMONAL OR IF I REALLY NEED TO GO HOME. IT'S HARD TO EXPLAIN. BUT I FEEL I HAVE NO REASON TO STAY HERE EXCEPT THAT THERE ARE A LOT OF CHURCH MEMBERS HERE. BUT THEN AGAIN NC ISN'T OFFERING A WHOLE LOT EITHER. ALL MY FRIENDS FROM THERE HAVE MOVED WEST OR ARE GOING TO SCHOOL IN ANOTHER TOWN. SO AT THIS POINT I'M NOT EVEN SURE. I WISH IT WAS JANUARY SO I COULD JUST GO ON MY MISSION. I'M SO EXCITED TO GO. IT WILL BE AN EXPERIENCE OF A LIFETIME AND WILL PREPARE ME FOR MY TRUE CALLING IN LIFE AND MY BIGGEST DREAM AND DESIRE, BEING A WIFE AND MOTHER. SO MUCH OF ME WANTS TO BE A NURSE AND TAKE CARE OF PEOPLE IN AFRICA BUT EVEN MORE THAN THAT I JUST WANT TO BE A MOM. I'M NOT SURE IF IT'S MY BIOLOGICAL ALARM CLOCK GOING OFF OR WHAT. I'M NOT REALLY IN A RUSH BY ANY MEANS, I KNOW THERE IS MUCH TO BE DONE BEFORE I'M READY (AS READY AS YOU CAN BE) BEFORE ANY OF THAT HAPPENS BUT I AM A BIT ANXIOUS. ANYWAYS ALL IN ALL I REALLY SHOULDN'T COMPLAIN. I HAVE AN AMAZING FAMILY AND WONDERFUL FRIENDS. I JUST NEED TO MAKE THIS SITUATION WORK FOR ME. BECAUSE EVERYDAY CAN BE TOUGH BUT THAT IS LIFE SO TAKE IT WITH A GRAIN OF SALT, RUN WITH IT AND LAUGH THE WHOLE TIME (EVEN IT'S THE LAUGHTER OF SOMEONE GOING INSANE). LAUGHING HELPS ALMOST ANYTHING.